I don't know what hit me first

But Jay's leaving this Friday. And I'm a senior. I'm bawling right now, but I think it's okay, because my best friend in the whole world is going away and won't be here for my senior year like I was here for his. And I know that I'll be okay and that I'll have just as good of a senior year as Jay. I'll just have to do it without him. And that's the hard part. And the funny thing is, it hit me because I was thinking of how many people were asking me if I was still with Jay, and somehow I expanded the conversation I had with Mr. Lavelle by him adding "So when's Jay going to college?" (which he didn't actually say), and I thought to myself "He's leaving Friday" and it hit me. Just like that. And I'm still crying. And I know I have to do this alone, but I just hope I'm strong enough. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle, right?