I really like my friends. It's like whoa crazy. But I've been thinking, and I have a different relationship with all of them.

With Jay, I obviously have a really close relationship, a dating relationship, or whatevr it's called. And I talk to him about important things sometimes, and argue with him on all the little stuff. I don't even know how to describe my relationship with Jay. I can sometimes even trust Jay, and if anyone knows me, it's that I don't trust a lot of people. I don't know why either. I just don't. But Jay and I can talk about anything, especially when we get a good phone conversation started. And he brings out parts of me that I didn't even know existed. I've learned to let out so much, emotionally, mentally, physically, everything. It's really hard to describe.

Laurel and I have a strange relationship. She's my best friend. Most best friends hang out together every other day, but she lives too far away for us to do that, and we're both too busy, but when we are together, you'd think we'd have spent our whole lives together. We can have serious conversations, we can have funny conversations, and we always seem to know which one to have when. We seem to be going through the same stages of life right now, one because we're in the same grade, but also because we got boyfriends at basically the same time (Although jay and i didn't offically date until a little after), we enjoy the same things, we're going into a lot of the same classes, etc.

Kayla and I are best friends. We'll always be each other's best friends, even if we don't speak to one another, have different views on life, and everything, pretty much because we have more history together than I do with anyone else I know. We grew up together, and formed the basis of eachother's personalities and such. We're so much alike, yet so different. I don't even want to begin to think about who I would be today if I didn't know her.

Lissa is one of my oldest friends at Bethel. We became friends in 7th grade, and we used to go over each other's houses every other day, if not more. We didn't have much in common- she was into fashion and boys, and I was into well...not that. I did band stuff, and drama club. But somehow our friendship was close. We sort of drifted since highschool, but we've done a lot this summer, and we're still doing a lot.

Liz. I don't even know how to explain our relationship. I do believe we were close at one point, especially at the begining of our wendy's trips. But Liz has so many friends, so many that are close to her, that I can understand, sort of, how hard it must be trying to show the same amount of care for each one. I know she tries, but sometimes I feel ignored. I really miss our old conversations about who loved who more, and me confessing my soul to her about jay. We used to talk a lot, and I'll always cherish those moments.

...yeah, i'm done for now.