I'm an Idiot

wow. i was laying in bed, just before, and i was thinking. i don't know why i was thinking, but i was. well, at first i was thinking about the musical, and how galinda/glinda let's everyone call her friend wicked, and doesn't sacrifice anything for her friend. then i thought about practice today. i know i described it earlier, but after having time to think i realised how mean and insulting and pessimistic and (place swear word here)y i was. i realized i probably hurt a lot of people. 1) alyssa, liz, and jamie. they have been putting on this musical, and working hard- almost 12 hours a day. they have more lines, more songs, more everything to do than me, and yet i was complaining more than them. i was also complaining that this wouldn't work, and that we sucked. this is very insulting to them, and it is unneeded. they are doing a great job on this musical, and without them well we wouldn't have a production. 2) jen. i told her that i never get mad. i straight out lied to her. i was very mad and upset and everything tonight. well, technically yesterday now. i feel so bad that i lied to her. like, really bad. 3) jay. i kept arguing with him, and i didn't consider his feelings. but it's been more than just today that i've been a (again, place swear word here) to him. which makes me feel worse. 4) everyone. i was rude to everyone in general. i kept saying we sucked, which probably made everyone upset and felt that they were bad. where actually i'm the one that's bad. i barely know my lines, the songs, or the dances. and yet i'm complaining about others. and i can't take anything i said back. well, this concludes the fact that i'm an idiot.